The Typical Scorpio B***h

The Typical Scorpio B***h (Trust me. I’m damn proud of it) !!!
(15/10/2004)

Occult, Magic & Satanism rule my world,
Love, Passion. Intensity around me twirls,
Painful piercing, chunky metal but never pearls,
I am just your average Scorpio Girl.

I make, I break, I break what I make,
Destructive, Vengeful, Ruthless road of life I take,
A Conner by profession to destroy the fake,
Its all or nothing in-betweens I hate.

I’ve fallen twice in love with the same man,
Another Scorpio more elevated than I am,
Contentment and peace are something I never had,
I represent Anti-Christ, I’m a member of his clan.

My mind running on the future whilst my soul in the past,
On the impassionate a Blood Red spell I will cast,
I dare you to love me; I bet it won’t last,
Oh poor you, your heart will end up in a cast.

Keep your word or you’ll be made my prey,
I destroy my prey a little each day,
Torture, torture, until you lifelessly lay-
down on my turf and surrender to what I say.

It’s my way or the highway or a storm is drawing nigh,
I lie low one minute and the next I touch the sky,
When I say stay away don’t you keep passing me by,
Or I’ll scratch your heart and split your soul-
and make you wanna die.

Love me tender; love me true, I’ll for ever stay by your side,
I’ll be your shining star, your guiding light, even whilst the tides are high,
I will not let you down and run around for any other guy,
Until you decide to sneak around and keep me running blind.

Learn your lessons on “How to love a Scorpio”
before you dream of me at night,
Or don’t even bother, I wouldn’t consider,
I shall bid farewell to your sorry pathetic site.

(Gobblezygook)

Drowning

Drowning
(23/08/2004)

The eerie moon is shining in the dark grey sky,
Kiss me slow, coz we are alone tonight,
Show me your universe, your hidden smile,
Make love to me right here, under the moonlight.

The world seems peaceful, with you by my side,
My mind is at rest, when under your wings I hide,
I want the world to see you in my eyes,
Search me, I ain’t wearing a disguise.

There’s jealousy written all over nature’s face,
Whilst I’m locked up in your tender gaze,
The dawn is breaking, the nights subtly erased,
To the wicked world we now must make our way.

Crazy, Crazy our lives have become,
Drifting apart has already begun,
Forget about what’s been said and done,
Let’s shake off these calluses & move on;
before the last chance is gone,

(Gobblezygook)

Hangman

Hangman !!! (A result of a suicide attempt)
(22/06/2004)

The noose, the noose, the heavy noose,
I’ve made my decisions, foot loose,
Adrenaline rushing and gushing trough my veins,
You have no excuse, this is what you paved.

I was never good enough for you, I never will be,
Your standards are too high, don’t you see,
I‘ve tried to be perfect, I‘ve sacrificed my peace of mind,
At least now, stop nudging me and stabbing me from behind.

Let me grow up, let me go, let me live,
I need to catch up on my childhood you have ruined.
I can’t even pick up the pieces; they are too shattered and torn,
I wish the angel of death upon me, before the break of dawn.

A love hidden deep within and not shown is of no use to me,
Please don’t take all your frustrations on me,
You’ve conquered life, but it’s drenched in strife,
Stop stabbing me, it hurts too much, too sharp is that knife.

Tell me what you want of me?
Are you trying to see the perfect you through me?
I cannot give back the life you’ve lost,
Don’t clone me, what’s lost is lost.

Don’t keep tripping me; I might not be that strong,
It’s been a struggle, to crawl, to walk,
But I’ll straighten up before long,
Tell me, am I a load, a burden to keep?
Let me know, I’ll walk away forever,
So you can peacefully sleep.

Crushed by evil,
Living on love,
Thoughts of dying,
Yet struggling to survive somehow.

(Gobblezygook)

Free To Go

Free To Go
(18/06/2004)

Walk away, you are free to go,
Your lame excuses are such a bore,
Just leave my heart at the door,
You won’t be needing it any more.

It ain’t that hard to let you go,
I’ll just hide my face and let the tears flow,
Over me you chose a whore,
Never knew you could stoop so low.

Don’t wanna see that puny face,
You in my life? Not a trace,
I’m over, I’m over, I’m over the craze,
Of loving you, it was just a phase.

Can she love you like I did?
Will she be there through thin and thick?
Can she see through you, like me?
Why did you choose her over me?

Can you answer all my questions?
No, they’ll linger in my head,
Tell me, have you got any suggestions?
Coz it feels like I wanna be dead.

I never thought that this would end,
Never knew you could be this dense.
Outa the lot I thought you were the best,
Should have known all men are jests.

(Gobblezygook)

He Loves Me He Loves Me Not

He Loves Me He Loves Me Not
(06/06/2004)

He who loves me makes me cry,
Why he does that, I don’t know why?
I love him, love him, more than my life,
Though all he does is fill me with strife.

The distance between us is so well kept.
My life is filled with his silent zest,
All he does is push and shove me away,
I just keep wishing for that brighter day.

I wanna pack my soul and run for shelter,
My overworked brain is running helter skelter,
Does he want me to go? Does he want me to stay?
I need to know, please tell me I pray.

Mixed signals I can’t comprehend,
The game he plays just has no end,
I’m only human, doesn’t he realize?
I’m tired of being penalized.

My life, my religion, my strength, my light,
The only star I wanna see at night,
But there is a limit a woman can take,
I’m helpless, all I can do is wait.

(Gobblezygook)

Closure

Closure
(22/03/2004)

I’ve closed the doors,
I’ve shut the gates,
I’ve left my past behind,
I’ve walked far away.

I’ll never turn back,
I’ll never regret,
I’ll never turn around,
And find my way back,

I’ll bravely look ahead of me,
It’s closure, closure, closure indeed,
The thoughts of revenge, which were ruling my head,
They’ve drowned away and are almost dead.

A new day, a new beginning,
A bright smile on my face a beaming,
My mind at peace, my heart at ease,
This is paradise, the world I seek.

I’ve forgiven my self for the wrong I did,
I bless those who dug my grave.
To my past, a humble farewell I bid,
I’ve got a future ahead of me to pave.

Don’t try to knock me down again,
You’ll only cripple yourself in pain,
My iron gates are too strong, too heavy,
So don’t waste your strength in vain.

Adios to my old life, adios to all my pain,
Closure, closure, is the name of the game.
Don’t give up, play it bold and strong,
One day you’ll realize that you’ve finally won.

(Gobblezygook)

Insanity

Insanity
(18/03/2004)

I loved you then, I love you still,
I never told you & I never will,
Lost forever I will be,
In my own little world, wild and free.

In my eyes, men are toys,
But you were never one of em boys,
I feared your eyes, your smile, your touch,
Your smile so rare, that meant so much.

At the height of insanity I ran away,
Coz it hurt to see you drift away,
In a loveless cycle I got trapped,
With my own insanity I got stabbed.

I hate you so for ripping my soul,
I hate you more for letting me go,
Never will I forgive your actions,
Do something to stop this crazy attraction.

Expensive fantasies, Congo Safaris, I ask for none,
Just your intense heart bleeding on my palm,
Your mind, making me surrender.
Exciting me & showing me wonders.

I am the vicious princess Scorpio,
That’s all I am to you.
Take a second to see through me,
Like I see through you.
And capture the radiance of what I feel for you.

Insanity rises when I hear your voice.
I wish you were invisible in my sight,
I wish I could seduce you in to my life,
But I’ve lost my powers over you,
Please HELP, save this dying soul.

(Gobblezygook)