Hangman

Hangman !!! (A result of a suicide attempt)
(22/06/2004)

The noose, the noose, the heavy noose,
I’ve made my decisions, foot loose,
Adrenaline rushing and gushing trough my veins,
You have no excuse, this is what you paved.

I was never good enough for you, I never will be,
Your standards are too high, don’t you see,
I‘ve tried to be perfect, I‘ve sacrificed my peace of mind,
At least now, stop nudging me and stabbing me from behind.

Let me grow up, let me go, let me live,
I need to catch up on my childhood you have ruined.
I can’t even pick up the pieces; they are too shattered and torn,
I wish the angel of death upon me, before the break of dawn.

A love hidden deep within and not shown is of no use to me,
Please don’t take all your frustrations on me,
You’ve conquered life, but it’s drenched in strife,
Stop stabbing me, it hurts too much, too sharp is that knife.

Tell me what you want of me?
Are you trying to see the perfect you through me?
I cannot give back the life you’ve lost,
Don’t clone me, what’s lost is lost.

Don’t keep tripping me; I might not be that strong,
It’s been a struggle, to crawl, to walk,
But I’ll straighten up before long,
Tell me, am I a load, a burden to keep?
Let me know, I’ll walk away forever,
So you can peacefully sleep.

Crushed by evil,
Living on love,
Thoughts of dying,
Yet struggling to survive somehow.

(Gobblezygook)